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11:02pm 23/09/2009
 
mood: hopeful
its my birthday, and against all odds, im ok with it :) and pretty stoked about several shows of love from unexpected sources :)
 
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SO   
04:46pm 01/03/2009
 
mood: crushed
Should I move back to bellingham? I have many arguments for staying in Oly or moving back, and I have to decide soon. It's freaking me out so I thought I would ask you guys.
 
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uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh   
11:34pm 24/02/2009
 
mood: discontent
sup, guys?
 
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PEOPLE WHO ARE COMING TO MY PARTY TOMORROW. (this could be YOU!)   
01:19am 04/10/2008
 
mood: pleased
Alrighty kids, the moment is almost here! I wanted to check in with all of you who are coming tomorrow (PARTY, REMEMBER?), and post some things to remember.

A: COME. BRING YOUR COOL FRIENDS.
2: DRESS UP. Look here for inspiration. http://images.burningman.com/index.cgi?q_photog=&q_category=&q_keyword=&q_year=2008
THWEE: You do not need to, but are encouraged to, bring presents/alcohol/a bit of cash to help with donations at the AWESOME BAR and to make my birthday as good as it SHOULD BE!!!
D: ROCK YOUR FUCKING FACE OFF. ( this, in Claire language, means DANCE MOTHERFUCKERS!)

starts at 8, show up earlyish (from 7:30-9) and we will have a costuming booth where you can decorate yourself and your friends.

IT IS NOT TO LATE FOR YOU TO DECIDE TO COME!! Just let me knoooow!!! Rides are being worked out from Bellingham and I will be calling people tomorrow.

WOOOO IM SO FREAKING EXCITED YOU CAN START GETTING EXCITED NOW. SEE YOU THERE!!!
 
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Uh huh Uh huh.   
07:31pm 23/09/2008
 
mood: cheerful
It is my birthday. One of the greater things about a birthday is being able to go around and say it's your birthday. I am in Bellingham, and I am not sure what I am doing in case anyone has been waiting for me to turn 21.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAIRE


why thank me.
 
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HEY, YOU!!   
01:46am 22/09/2008
 
mood: bouncy


YES, YOU. And I will be hunting down those of you I really miss....SO DON'T THINK YOU CAN SHIRK YOUR DUTIES!!

 
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Happy Birthday to me.   
08:34pm 23/09/2007
 
mood: distressed
"Its my birthday and I will cry and not be able to make rent and starve if I want to"...or if I don't want to.

Bitch Bitch Bitch.

My job, that I got today, is 4 hours a week. At less then 8 bucks an hour. This wasn't supposed to happen. I can't pay 400 dollars of rent. I can't pay for school. I have to move and I have no money. This job was supposed to help everything. I am so fucked. Scared enough to be ranting on LJ apparently.

And besides that, it is my own personal hell. It is all highschoolers who are more competent at this job then me, because they don't hate the national WHORE-DAY that people call Halloween. AND I WAS PLACED BEHIND THE BALLOON COUNTER AT 8:30 THIS MORNING. With four people filling balloons around me. I am deathly, irrationally afraid of helium balloons. I actually had to keep myself from crying. And I was there for four and a half hours, hung over and hungry. I had to help customers. I did not wear the "dress code requirements" because when I got hired they did not TELL ME TO. I had to watch two hours of "the art of selling" "harassment in the workplace" "lost children" and "welcome to party city". Fucking fuck.

Man, why can't life just give me a break today. Its my birthday.

Thank you Devyn, and everyone who helped to make my birthday party last night wonderful, and a memory that helps me deal right now.

And I'm fucking starving myself slowly. I hate it. I hate being so....malnourished and weak.

ok. </bitch>
 
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SO   
01:17pm 07/07/2007
 
mood: cheerful
A: That last post was made by some mad alter ego of mine, I think.

and 2: I am in Bellingham, dunno if any of you care anymore but I thought I would throw it out there where everyone in Bellingham will read it.
 
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07:31pm 06/07/2007
  "I am a slitty sicker!"

It was like Fear & Loathing in Ethel ... and all the other billions of places we went today, where EVERYONE looked EXACTLY the same, we had three females clerks in a row and they were all THE SAME MOTHERFUCKING PERSON. Then something made of fuckhead and death flew into Devyn's eye I was started to get delirious and dehydrated from heat exhaustion.

Up UNTIL then everything was cool, though.

Now, things are composed entirely of gross, sweat, newsprint grime, sweat, dehydration, hunger, thirst, and sunstroke with a heaping layer of sunburn.

That is a fucking mean job.
 
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BORED!!?!!!!!   
01:26am 13/05/2007
 
mood: AAAAAAAAAA!!!!!
me: MY GOD
Devyn: whats up?
me: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
NEED TO DO SOMETHING
Devyn: wanna play ddr?
me: NO!!
Devyn: well, what woiuld you like to do?
me: die
right now
epically
Devyn: lets start a suicide club
me: YAAAYY
Devyn: wOOOO
me: AAAAAAAAAAAa
MUST GO JUMPING!!
Devyn: GOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooo
into trains!!!!!!!!
me: YAAAAYY
Devyn: WOOOOOOOOOOOOOAOAOOOOAOA
me: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Devyn: ooooooooooooo

Devyn is busy. You may be interrupting.
 
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Because I know you check you LJ pretty often, and this is a cooler way for you to get it.   
04:00am 23/04/2007
 
mood: tired
This picture is for Devyn.

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/46193643/

I could have just sent it to you, but this way it is a lovely surprise gift. Or at least I hope so.

<3
 
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IN NEED OF A GEEK. Or anyone who would like to help.   
07:28pm 20/04/2007
 
mood: anxious
Hey everybody. I am in desperate need of someone, you, or a friend you think would like to meet me or just talk on the phone, or come over and get cookies and tea or whatever, but this person needs to be literate in moderate to advanced web design, or SQL. More specifically e-commerce web design. Most specifically, how to make a separate pop-up page from a picture, or setting up a good forum, or a custom design form that people can fill out and send to us from the site, along with some other things. It would need to be soon, by this weekend, but it doesn't need to be much. I know this is kind of a long shot, but its one of those things that I really need friend help for, and the internet is the best way to ask in this case. Think about it, ask your geeky friends, post back. Thank you everyone in advance, this is really kinda stressful and huge for me.
 
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA   
12:37am 04/03/2007
 
mood: silly
GAGE:
I had a dream a few nights ago that we found Claire with her wrists cut in the bathtub. She'd left a strange sort of preemptive good-bye note on her computer. I don't remember the wording anymore, but it was something to the effect of, "Now I know what heaven looks like."

DEVYN:
I had a dream the other night where Claire was being insanely mean and not telling anyone why, and she was crying all the time.

ME:
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AARON TOLD ME A FEW DAYS AGO THAT HE HAD A DREAM THAT I WAS ON THE BUS WITH HIM AND STARTED MAKING OUT WITH RANDOM GUYS JUST BECAUSE THEY HIT ON ME. WHAT THE FREAKING FUCK IS THIS, DREAM ABOUT AWFUL CLAIRE TIME????? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO CREEPED OUUUUTTTT!!!!!!!


WHAT DO YOU PEOPLE FREAKING THINK OF ME??????

WTF-O-COPTER-RAMA!!
 
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Thank you all very, very much.   
05:45pm 08/02/2007
 
mood: stressed
But despite all of your love (which did make me feel better), the city of Olympia decided they need to cut off our water for an indiscriminate amount of time unless I get together $90, and send a check tomorrow. I just borrowed $300 for rent, and I have no other people to ask but the internet at large. Devyns car is dead. I hurt. this sucks so hard. gnuhhhhhhhh.

But, I am supposed to get paid on the 15th. If any of you can spare $90 (haha, I know) until next Thursday, or even just until next Tuesday, I could pay you back at that point in time. It has to be sent by tomorrow, so anyone can let me know tonight or before 5:00 tomorrow, that would be really, really, really...really great.
 
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Alright, ok. Yeah.   
10:45pm 07/02/2007
 
mood: stressed
I'm gonna do it. You all do it. We like to do it. It gets done often. Live journal is good for it. Hell, I think it was meant for it.

I had a shitty day. Not like other people don't have shittier ones. Not that it couldn't have been worse. Not that I am not incredibly privileged. Not that it isn't for small fairly petty reasons.

But if you...any of you...could just tell me you care, you don't think I'm stupid, or silly

Well, it would mean a whole lot.

It's just the kind of person I am right now, and this is the place to say it.

Please.
 
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Hey guys!   
01:55am 28/01/2007
 
mood: ecstatic
 
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I need YOU! To help Claire!!!   
02:31pm 14/12/2006
 
mood: hopeful
Hellooooo Livejournal!

So, for all you Bellingham Friends/Acquaintances/Sidekicks of mine out there, I have a request, which stems from a problem.

I am coming from Olympia to Bellingham today, by Greyhound, and the bus is going to make it into Bellingham by about 12:30 TONIGHT.

I don't have a ride to get from the Fairhaven Greyhound/Train terminal, and I really don't want to walk from there to James and Alabama (next to Youngstocks the fruit stand, and where Red Apple used to be....kinda near Sunset Square) where my home is.

If you could give me that (VERY SHORT) ride, I would love to buy us both hot chocolate, or just give you a few bucks, or I'll just love you, or whatever.

You can reply to me here, or call me in Olympia @ 1-360-943-1177. I'm catching the bus at 7:30 tonight, so any replies after that I can't get.

Heres hoping someone in Bellingham still remembers and loves me!

oh, and I was considering calling you, GAGE, to see if Drew would do it....or possibly you, EMILY, even though you are going to be exhausted from getting into town, or not even in town by then...but maybe you will just read this, cuz I don't want to be inconvenient for either of you.

Thank you all, and I'll be in town to hang out for quite a while, so get ahold of me! My Bellingham #...676-9625
 
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05:39pm 26/11/2006
 
mood: calm


snowsnowSNOWsnowSNOWsnowsnow....


oh wait...snow. fuck.

Well, guess I can't get back to school. Daaaaamn.

:D
 
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09:51pm 22/11/2006
 
mood: awake
And then last night I had that strange dream
Where everything was exactly how it seemed
Where concerns about the world getting warmer
The people thought they were just being rewarded
For treating others as they like to be treated
For obeying stop signs and curing diseases
For mailing letters with the address of the sender
Now we can swim any day in november

Don't wake me I plan on sleeping in.



I'm in Bellingham untill Sunday. Hook me up with all this Bellingham excitement, bitches!


 
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Here we go...   
11:48pm 05/10/2006
 
mood: determined
I...think...that I will be street performing/busking at tomorrow night's Olympia Arts Walk. I am SCARED SHITLESS. This isn't performing where I agreed, got paid, was expected and promoted and put on posters beforehand and then I perform at a specific time and place. No one is asking or expecting me to do this. I have to gather a potentially unwilling/uninterested audience, entertain them, and then make them give me money. By JUGGLING. This is ridiculous. This is what I want to do with my life. This is my dream. I am so, so scared.

If anyone can remind me specifically of any talents I posses that they would be entertained by seeing, please let me know. I seem to have forgotten.

The reason why this is so hard is because it is the easiest job in the world to just back out of. No one is asking, no one is expecting. I can't whine, because I bring this upon myself. I can feel the adrenaline now. Do one thing everyday that scares you, huh? Well. Here I go.

Oh, and I don't usually ask for or need it, but some encouragement would be nice before I run screaming in the other direction.

LOOK OUT WORLD, HERE I COME!!!


On a completely unrelated note, I think I am going to become a suicidegirl. shweet.
 
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