It's HARD being Claire! (notasyouthink) wrote,
It's HARD being Claire!

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Here we go...

I...think...that I will be street performing/busking at tomorrow night's Olympia Arts Walk. I am SCARED SHITLESS. This isn't performing where I agreed, got paid, was expected and promoted and put on posters beforehand and then I perform at a specific time and place. No one is asking or expecting me to do this. I have to gather a potentially unwilling/uninterested audience, entertain them, and then make them give me money. By JUGGLING. This is ridiculous. This is what I want to do with my life. This is my dream. I am so, so scared.

If anyone can remind me specifically of any talents I posses that they would be entertained by seeing, please let me know. I seem to have forgotten.

The reason why this is so hard is because it is the easiest job in the world to just back out of. No one is asking, no one is expecting. I can't whine, because I bring this upon myself. I can feel the adrenaline now. Do one thing everyday that scares you, huh? Well. Here I go.

Oh, and I don't usually ask for or need it, but some encouragement would be nice before I run screaming in the other direction.


On a completely unrelated note, I think I am going to become a suicidegirl. shweet.
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